If you choose to reflect back on the moment as a dear friend of mine
mentioned to me. (she'll post if she wants) I tried to apologize
numerous times and I was met with Zains "Thats not enough" and "You
traitor" I eventually got tired of offering to apologize as it would not
be accepted. Ultimately Zain laid the foundation for a reason to kill
him.

Now then, my pain of the other world. Given, my dreams as I sleep are
tormented, painful, and they destroy my soul as a drift through the
ethers, but I -never- said that was my soul reason for killing Zain. I
may have asked bulvai to go easy as a truly horrific dream of losing a
loved one occured but that is all. I killed Zain because of what Zain
did. I did not kill Zain because my of dreams. Remove your head from
your ass and start thinking like a normal person. There is no Black and
there is no White, you are surrounded by a world of grey and nothing is
as it seems. Deal with it.

You need to go back to 'Churchie' school and re-learn a few things. Do I
lord over anything? No, the only power I possess is the power to slay
some goblins, do a good deed every now and then. Why don't I lord over
people? Because I do not like having to be responsible for peoples lives
or well being. If you even listened to what I say I don't want to lord
over anyone, or control anyone, I want to be treated farily by the rules
of shallam instead of joining the lines of people who got screwed by the
hypcocrisy of your home, and your church.

Actions speak louder than words dear boy.

apply caloric

Penned by my hand on the 16th of Lupar, in the year 287 AF.