Let me begin this first by saying that I am, by all accounts, quite a
babe in the forest of understanding the nature of Chaos...then again, as
I see it, are all mortals, and if I may be so bold, some divine. I
entered into the ever growing and changing House of Occultism with
trepidation at first, as I was unsure if this congregation of scholars
and seekers of knowledge was where I truly belong. I payed my dues as a
fledging...hunted many a rat, wandered aimlessly around the great city
of Ashtan, stumbled my way through learning our extensive teachings. I
was lost, unsure, feeling rather helpless in this vast world. That is
until, my first examination. After it's completion, I felt free to see
the world outside of city walls, and I ventured south after a discussion
on the nature of chaos with one of my housemates. I found myself, lost,
thirsty, and scorched on the burning sands of the Mhojave desert for
what seemed an eternity...and it was there that I found myself, defying
all logic, on the steps of a great pyramid. Nervous at first I climbed
the massive steps and entered into a door. Now what I found there is not
for me to describe publicly, but as I stumbled my way through chaos,
lost in unfamiliarity, I began to discover order contained within
ultimate chaos, and with each subsequent level, found my initial
misgivings fading away, and more and more found myself at home in this
world.
As a child, as far back as I can remember, I was tought to hold strict
allegiance to Order, to serve others, to not seek knowledge, but to hold
tight to the words and beliefs of others. When I reached the age where I
was able to form my own paradigm, however, I felt, and then KNEW that
these teachings where misguided attempts from others, who did not have
the fortitude and insight to see that while the experience and guidance
of those before us held some answers, the only answers that mattered
where the ones that could never be found...only searched endlessly for.
So I journeyed...alone, for many (Many is a relative term when speaking
to a Divine, I know) years to find the path which would lead me to
enjoghtenment. When I found it I realized to was endless, circling to
the beginning and forever leading me through the same maze, although
with different scenery each time I went around its endless halls. I
started seeing that while I tried to follow the path of cHAoS, it was
inextricably tied to order, which it beget so many years eons ago. While
this was, I say this with no shame, EXTREMELY maddening at first, this
insanity began to give way to insight into the true nature of Sapience,
and untimately, ALL worlds and planes of existence, and I for the first
time, realized what it was I must do.
So it was that I reached the Apex of this monument which you built, and
looked over the far reaches of existence, and it dawned on me that even
where I to see the entirety of this worlf, that all of creation is
infinite, yet I must strive to understand all of it, and seek to shape
it in my own small small way, and simultaneously understanding that this
understanding will never fully come, as I am mortal, and doomed to a
finite amount of time on this plane.
I write this to you not to seek your favor, but to inform you that your
teachings are not lost on the realm of those who are not of the Godly
persuasion. That is, if I understand them at all. If I do not, feel free
(and I know you need not my permission to do so) to bestow upon me all
sort of ridicule and punishment, as I am certain I will learn from this
as well.

Yours with the utmost respect and sincerity,
Karathas, Karmic Scholar

Penned by my hand on the 16th of Aeguary, in the year 441 AF.