A little bird told me that I should check my messages and read the posts on the public board. I have to tell you, Mazrim and Khejian, that my friends have made me stronger today than I have ever been before. Battling with Depression is the hardest thing anyone ever has to face and overcoming it alone is like spitting in Lord Sartan's face and then trying to fend him off with a rubber chicken. (No disrepect Sir, but I somehow think that a rubber chicken would not go very far towards protecting one against Your wrath)

The kind and beautiful words of my Husband and my friends have given me strength and the will to overcome my problems and get back to being myself. If you feel that having friends is weak, perhaps you have pushed all of your own so far away that you have deluded yourself into thinking that you don't need them. I still miss you Khejian. Time was that I loved you with all my heart and I would have done anything for you. But you cast me aside as I suppose you have all of your friends. If I was weak, I would have dissolved into a pool of useless material, sobbing and crying at the loss of a loved one, but I was strong and I held my head high, and I carried on with my life and I was glad that I got my armour out of you cheap before you turned into such a miserable bastard.

To my friends...I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I may be having a difficult time and I am hiding away until I am sure that I will not destroy everything and everyone I love in a fit of depressive anger, but I still love you, and I really do appreciate all of yourr kind words and messages. Knowing that I have people like you who care will help me through this. I love you all

Armelia

Penned by my hand on the 13th of Daedalan, in the year 256 AF.