I will tell you, you whore, what I believe in.
I believe in unity, and trust. Without a society of *like* minds, ours is a world without evolution. What we contribute to our factor as evolved beings is our strength, or our weakness. Mistrust is often, the cause for such reversal, and sprouts to spiritual weaknesses, such as insecurity. When I speak of trust, I speak of trusting oneself. Truly, what are we without inner-self? Merely organic flesh, that rots without our spirit sustaining its thirst for growth.
Now, judging from your very poor post, which reflects this very insecurity that I have seen abundant in you, even when I was an 18 year old Sentaari, who observed your very behavior. I grew up next to you seeing all the potential you so callously took for granted. I grew, and adapted to the violence that is life, while you slipped further, and further into the spiritual coma you now lie in. Truly Dekkar, your heritage as a monk is a flaw to all the bretheren who dedicate their lives to the persuit of perfection. Perfection of mind: I will quote from your last post, your ignorant insecurity, completely contradicting the point you were trying to make....

"I don't listen to you Element. Your words mean nothing to me. I couldn't care less what you think about me so why don't you find something more intresting to do. oh yeah, your post really, *really* hurt my feelings. I don't know how I'm going to cope with that one.

Number one: You do listen to me. Loud and clear. I hint to your soul what you *could* be if you only dropped those walls of insecurity. The rest of this quote reflects accurately my observation of your lack of will. Rather than defend your view, or defend your very existance, you speak with sarcasm, and rather redundant insult patterns most commonly found among 10 year old girls.
Number two: The title of your post included the word Jealosy. Dekkar... when your name is spoken, or when I view the scroll that includes your name as minister of security, a sense of filth wahses over me. A dirty notion that your flawed existance could possibly be contagious. I think inner reflection is required on your part. You jump to use the word jealousy. For no reason, none apparant to you, me, or anyone who knows either of us, you talk about jealousy. We both know who the jealous one is. You watched in inner-turmoil as a peer you onced grew up alongside with, possessed the courage to do what he believed. The courage and strength to stand alongside his decisions, no matter the opposition. Jealousy would indeed describe this inner turmoil, and I think you ought to inspect this point I bring into light. You probably never even realized you used the word jealous. I do bet deep inside, you've been tossing this word around for quite a while now.

Rather than continue my dissection of your simple, unfocused life, I will leave with you the answer you seek. Why do I continue my berating of you?
Quite simply, I expect more from a bretheren, who cares not for his heritage, or the state of his soul... Only for material items, and labels. You are a constant reminder to me of that which reverses the evolutionary process so important to us. Your gene being added to the pool is a direct threat to Us as a people, reaching enlightenment.
May you find your way. Look in yourself, rather than in others for strength. Bringing my 'goons' (which will soon be etched into your head, as it hangs on our guild wall) into this simply reflects your lack of courage to deal with me, and me alone. You need buffers to ease your soul's wail at your very ignorance.

Penned by my hand on the 15th of Miraman, in the year 247 AF.