OK Sapience I have a story to tell!

The Lady of Sin is rebirthed, freed from her imprisonment by Lord Sartan
as a result of the War of the Divine Child. Before this went on, I was a
studious young Apostate deep into the study of Lord Sartan and his
teachings, as I was young in the city of Mhaldor, climbing ranks quickly
but still very young in the world.

Not long after Her freeing, she contact me requesting a meeting. The
result of that meeting was the aquisition of her first ever order
member. From that day forward I was heavily involved in drumming up
support for Her in Mhaldor and worked my way up eventually to OR9. At
that time the OR10 and GM of the Apostates was Detritus, who also had my
full support in all things, as I had an unwaivering amount of respect
for him, and loyalty to Her. Orders were handed down.. Duties were
followed and in the end I ws put into a position to choose to support
Indrani and The Apostates Guild, or, support my Best Friend-Detritus. I
chose to support my Goddess and do my Order duty--which eventually over
a long slew of unpleasantness got me Outguilded. I was the Head of
novices and next in line for GM and OUTGUILDED because I supported her
over my Best Friend. I lost my friend, my professional alliances, my
guild, my work, everything because I chose to do the job I was chosen to
do. Chosen.. I didn't go to Her for induction... She chose ME. In that I
felt betrothed to support her to all ends. Which I did.

After a time we built up a bit of an order, and upon our first meeting
She ordered us to get one of Hers into the Mhaldor City Council. We
elected Detritus to do this as he was the GM of the Apostates at the
time. Unfortunately, in doing it the way we did it, by Her Orders, he
contested. But he didn't speak to Sartan first and thereby stepped on
some rather powerful toes. Due to this, Detritus got put in the badbooks
in Mhaldor politics. But I supported Her, I supported him, and pushed
forward with my Duties. In relation to that, I was informed that the
Apostate guild was going to be shunned in Mhaldor as long as Detritus
was GM, holding no power in the City and that would carry over to
Indranis order, not having a voice in City Politics at all, and that the
only saviour was if I contested him for GM. My history with YIG, who was
Tyrannus at the time, goes way back and I was trusted to a degree that
went beyond the troubles with Detritus and Lady Indrani. Yig handed me
10k gold and told me to contest. Indrani ordered Detritus and I
simultaneously that I -WAS- to be GM. Detritus being who he is, managed
to turn most of the guild against me and thus the election ended with
him on top and when She found out her orders were not met, she punished
the Entire Order, demoting us ALL to OR1. Even Me. The Outguilding came
not long after that, and between the two I went into long respite,
sleeping away my depression and anger. When I came back knowing she'd
changed the promotion requirements (now a long slew of ridiculous
testing requirements, including the writing of a philosophical newspost
on order news on the teachings of another divine) After a time I worked
up and completed all the requirements for the first 3 order rank exams,
and asked her to be tested. After all that I'd been through I thought it
wasn't an unreasonable request. Lady Indrani tested on me on the first
and then denied my exam on any other stating I needed to wait 4 months.
So regardless of my fuming state of mind, I took it and decided to wait
out the next few months so to keep moving forward. Since this point I
have been on and actively seeking council with her nearly every single
month in passing but she's not been responsive. Then this month earlier
there was a post announcing someone else taking over the OR10
privileges.

I quit the Order of Indrani. I have given over my entire life to someone
who has seen fit to screw me around repetetively and when I challenge
her on it, her reply is to maggot me, kill me - which by the way took a
rather long time for someone who is Divine- and and then enemied me to
the order.

SO allow me to warn you Sapience.. Take me as a lesson... I have full
respect for all Divine.. but my experiences have taught me that Her idea
of Loyalty and Mine differ... by Immeasurable amounts. Dont allow
yourself to be caught in the same situation.

Appolonia Le'Coeur

Penned by my hand on the 15th of Scarlatan, in the year 342 AF.