This is proably going to be the hardest post i will ever write. I am
here going to declare publically the events leading up to this point
involving my relations with the maldaathi, mhaldor, and Lord Lupus. I
was a infernal since the begging and i was loyal even through the
impaling upon the stalagmite. however i was loyal only in deed. I never
truly served Sartan in my heart. I only joined the infernals all those
years ago because i was young and easily decived. I know no that it was
a great mistake of mine to join them. Through time i rose in ranks until
i eventually became a knight and recently i left on a assignment to join
lupus order and spy on it so that i could relay information back to
Sartans people.

When i left with my honourable discharge i began to do my mission. I
spoke with some members of lupus guild and did mass offering to try and
gain favour enough to infiltrate it. However after i had talked to
Koralin for several days, I slowly began to truly turn to what i wanted
to do deep inside. I wanted to Truly serve lupus in intention and deed.
I denounced Sartan publically and because of it am now being hunted by
my former guildmates. I do not ask forgivness because i know i dont
deserve it, i am indeed a tratior to Sartan, but was I not a tratior to
myself for not doing what i had wanted to do all along? I only ask that
you look at me now and see my true intentions are indeed to serve Lord
Lupus and judge me accordingly.

If i am tossed aside as a tratior or a spy, i fully understand and bear
no grudge for I brought it upon myself when I began my deciteful plan.
Yet if I am forgiven and given a chance i will show that i am indeed
truly one of Lord Lupus servents and wish for nothing more but to be
accepted by him.

Either way, I know that im finally taking the right course of action.
For the first time in my life I am doing what i truly belive is what I
should do and not what im ordered to do. I will be hunted, but so be it.
At last I am following my heart and doing what must be done. I will
prove to all of sapiance that i am not as low as i seem, but mostly ill
prove it to myself.

Nosgard

Penned by my hand on the 25th of Scarlatan, in the year 318 AF.