I sit in darkness.. the vast land stretching out before me...
All is as shadow.. is it full?.. is it empty?
Comfortable in my hollow paradise
Free of desire, sin, need or vice.

Life most bearable.. lonely yet safe as a mothers womb
Feelings and emotions dead as a stone cold tomb.
Playing with my mind, strange shadows my friends
Every avenue leads to a dead end.

Never wandering, never wondering, all paths lead here,
Sameness everyday, no sadness no tears.
Predictable and practical never a surprise
And the most wondrous.. no-one to tell lies.

She comes. I SEE Her.. light surrounds and illuminates,
Light to see this world I'm in.. from Her it emanates.
Trees unfold.. flowers.. they bloom in Her presence
grasses grow and birds fly high released in happiness.

To see.. to see.. my Gods the sights blind me.
The light.. the Woman.. it all surrounds me.
The sky is blue.. a shade of dreams and goals,
The air is stirring.. fresh and clean it blows.

She looks to me and smiles.. I cry out as my heart FEELS.
She calls to me and whispers of love of joy and kneels.
On Her knees She sings to me, my ears hear only Her,
My tears fall to Her face as rain, new feelings start to stir.

Her promises of safety and love.. of loyalty and honesty.
Her promises of happiness, Her eyes implore me earnestly.
I stand before Her, believing these words.
I stand before Her, my entire being yearns.

I laugh. I cry.. I dance and sing and fall,
I surrender to these visions after all.
I revel and play and pull Her to my breast,
I cherish this Woman who tells me this is best.

She opens my eyes to the beauty and the might,
Of this world I'm in.. once alone now two, we share the sight.
Together we run and feel and love, promises we make,
Together we turn to one another and love we then make.

I lay.. feeling more than at any time of my life,
I lay.. unbelieving, happy.. no longer living in Strife.
I turn.. to see Her eyes..and show to Her my soul,
I turn.. and see Her eyes.. and fear strikes me cold.

Her eyes are gone.. Her smile is gone.. Her love fades,
Cold.. so cold... like the edge of a killers blade.
She stands, She looks at me and I beg her to stay.
She turns and walks off.. as She burns my essence away.

I sit in light, this wondrous new land, alive as never before.
She walks.. and I watch Her.. unable to mutter the words.
I watch Her leave.. no longer in sight.. the cold envelopes me,
I lower my eyes.. I can no longer fight.. I no longer wish to see.

Unknown time.. a day? a week?.. an hour?
I sit.. and feel my heart go sour.
I look up.. to the trees.. the flowers mocking,
I look to the birds..laughing and flocking.

I'm no longer cold.. my anger is warm, burning.
A rage I am incapable of containing.
Once more I have tears.. yet these are as blood,
I look at my world.. and flames begin to bud.

The grass dries and withers.. fire taking them whole,
The trees turn to torches.. no.. I am not cold...
Even the birds.. who fly above my rage...
They cant escape.. the fire I send is a cage.

I watch the world burn welcoming the heat of the pain.
I watch the world burn.. damning and cursing the rain.
Laughing in my insanity I caper a mad little dance,
I giggle and scream, hatred is now my stance.

This is my Hell and as such it should be,
Burning, dieing, screaming, taunting me.
In the end all is gone, sand and dust rule all,
I scream so that everyone can witness my fall.

I calm.. and stand.. my body as lead,
I open my eyes.. and they are heartless and dead.
I gaze around at the death of earth, air and wood.
And I smile once more.. for in my eyes it is good.

Penned by my hand on the 20th of Aeguary, in the year 573 AF.