Wanting to cry
But the tears don�t want to come
Watching in vain as everything falls
Falls to pieces around me
Around my feet
Around my world
As my world itself falls to pieces
I see myself shattering too
Slowly I will shatter
Into too many pieces to fix
Slowly I will vanish
From the world I know should exist

Wearing a mask of who I�m not
Knowing all of who I am
Ponders of knowing who I am
Answers of not letting them know my past
As I shatter to pieces
As my world around
Starts turning to dust
My mask will fall but
Not show who I am
For once it falls so do I
And yet
Do you now want to know who I am

Do you understand why I do what I do
Why I did what I did
Do you want to understand me from beneath the mask
Well, there was only one who has
You are not him
You won�t be him, which I�m thankful for
He was once the one I loved
The one I thought I would forever love
At the time that my world is whole
But now my heart must find a new
And not let him stop me again

I hide myself so that I can heal myself
There is one who will heal me full though
One who is all to me
Who will put my shattering world
Together again

When the time comes for me to tell all
For me to break the seal of words forever sealed
The world of the pain I�ve felt
For so many years
I will tell the world who I am
Who I was and will be again
Now look at the mask
That I forever seem to wear
Do you see me in the mask
Or do you just see a mask
In and around itself
Well do me the favor
Learn to see with more then just eyes
See with your heart as well
For seeing more then what is
Is seeing what was and will be again
A world away and out of read
Is a world anew
One that needs work getting to

Light and Dark
Both seeming the same to me
Now I need to hear
Something that is neither one yet the same
And yet altogether different in a way
Changing in shapes, voices and views
Light and Dark
Are no more to me
I am shattering and falling
Day by day
Only those who I love
Keep me somewhat sane
Fathers, mothers, children, lovers
Uncles, aunts, nieces, and nephews
Friends and friends
And housemates too
All keep me from falling
Into a darkness of light anew

My shattering world
The shatter me
All will turn into a new story
One with an ending so well
Once the pieces of me are mended
Once I am me again
My world will be whole once again and be new
And I can finally lose the pain I was once given
Given so long ago

A broken promise
Leads to a broken heart
With one you almost always end with another
But with some you can end up with neither
A pride unknown
A world away
Strength to stand
Strong alone
Yet that strength seems to fade
Oh what hell
Will come some day
When shell falls
And still keeps the pain
What chaos will be
Around her pain
When none know her
But all see her
For who she isn�t and yet who she is
A shattering world
Will hide all the secrets
Of whom she was

A world now healed
Except for a part
A heart in pain
And soul in need
One will come
When the time is right
And make all whole again
And life will be
As a river is
Forever flowing
And going past the bumps
As they come


Penned by my hand on the 19th of Daedalan, in the year 410 AF.