I wanted to mention something. I wasnt squabbling with anyone in news.
I was showing my point of view. Those of you have yours and are all very well excepted to show them.
I didnt run to my 'enemies' I went to my friends. I didnt have enemies, I still dont.
I went to the people who excepted me as a person looking for her own path in life.
My joining Ashtan did not make me go against the church. Joining a city other than Shallam is not going against the church.
I found my own sanctuary with the people of Ashtan. They are like family to me, they are helping me in my struggle.
I broke no oath. If any oaths were broken it was one that the whole church had broken.
Blackmail yes, i see this going on as well. I had threats that if I did not rejoin the church and priesthood that I would regret it. I would die and suffer over and over.
How can you do that to someone who only wanted to better themselves?
The only time I went against the church is when it went against me. How could I keep faith in it when it was rebelling against me and slaughtering me cause I had my own faith?
The newsroom is not being plagued with ramblings, it is showing mere discussion among a broad group of people.
Everyone has a right in this land to show their true selves and express their points. So do not be upset about it being shown.
I am not at war with the church. Im at war with myself. I am trying to find a living in such a cruel world.
The ones who have shown me comfort had been against me in the past. They have been more than forgiving to me, for that I owe them my service and thanks.
The Church should show its members how to except people that are not its own, and help them in their time, and let them understand other peoples feelings and situations.
The Church should not just hover among its own members, that is not helping it at all. The Church should be a sanctuary to people with many beliefs, It shouldnt turn people away, If you want more people to accept the church, then you all should be willing to accept other people. Open your arms and let them in, but no you hide from those who are not like you.
Instead of showing people care, you show them that they are different. Well we are all the same in the God's eyes, so why cant we look at each other the as all being human beings.
Not as in oh your in this guild and im not, oh you believe in this and i dont.
Everyone has their own beliefs, those of the church hide it though, so they will not have to go through this sort of thing.
They say they believe in one thing, but what you need to do is believe in yourself.

Wassalissa A'Gaeris

Penned by my hand on the 10th of Miraman, in the year 253 AF.