After much thought and much anxiety, I have decided that departing this world for the time being is the only option for me. There is a point for anyone that you have to realize that you have lost and move on. I have been trying to deny this point, but I am finally coming to terms with it.

My home of Hashan has changed since I first was there. I do no longer consider it a place of neutrality, which was my reason for joining and calling it home. I still love the people there of course, but I can no longer find myself excited about the ideals it holds. To me neutrality is being neither evil nor good and being neither light nor dark. That is the place that I once lived. It was a town very open to all types of people with all types of ideals.

I believe in neutrality because I notice the stongpoints of many different beliefs. It is not just one that can give us strength, but the combined force that makes us such a great world. That is why I am that way, not to mention that I have friends on all sides so I would not want to have to worry about conflicting interests.

My ultimate goal in this land was to make many friends. Friendship to me is the most important goal. Power can be taken away at any time, but true friendships can never break. If they break, that just means they were not your true friends. This is my plea for all of you to get to know each other and realize that there is more to this world than just power. Friendship in the end is much more fulfilling than power. (This does not mean you will be friends with all, but try to get to know each one of your guildmates and perhaps even citymates if you have time. I know some already do, but there are many that have not.)

On a more personal note, I have notice that peace is making a decline in many places. Many (probably most) people in all cities consider it to be shameful and dishonorable. Even my home city of Hashan, which was once the neutral city (yes, I know neutral does not mean peaceful, but neutral also implies a lower amount of conflict since you are not stuck to a certain belief such as good and evil that you are fighting for), requires you to physically fight or you cannot be in a guild. One is required to physically fight if the need arises in every Hashan guild. If you ask me, I think Oneiros has taken a grave hit recently in that way.

My departure may not be permanent, but looking at current events I would have to say it will at least be close to that. A return of a neutral city or a resurgence of the principles and respect for peace may likely be enough for me to travel back to this world and once again call it my home.

I will miss all of you. Even if I have not met you, I may have thought about you since I tried to think of how all felt and empathize with them. (I am not all-powerful though, and I, like all, had made a few mistakes.) Of course, my link with my friends was closest and I will miss you greatly. (At least I found ways to contact you from other worlds as well. If you consider me your friend, please message me on how to contact me since I was not able to contact all of you in this short period. I will still be stopping in for an Achaean month or two to look at them and reply to any follow up posts.)

I have made very few public posts, and I thought that it was time to do so since I know others who have had similar thoughts, but have been afraid to post out of fear from those more powerful than they are.

Please be well, everyone.

Penned by my hand on the 25th of Sarapin, in the year 268 AF.