No I will revise my statement. Not all occultists are evil. I have met 1 as a newbie that was more interested in histiory than performing evil rites. I have met 1 that was very polite more recently and I had a wonderful philosophical conversation with him. However YOU are.
If you wonder why most are. Well think back to Squire Gromack and his slaughter. I will agree with your guildmates, it was very chaotic 4 on one.

Penned by my hand on the 20th of Mayan, in the year 238 AF.