This is to answer the many many questions I've recieved through messages (not that I didn't expect that), since my apparently sudden move to Ashtan. It shall also explain into whatever detail I deem necessary why that move took place.

I should start with how this all began. When I was young, I came to Achaea without reading any histories, or knowing much about the lands at all. I knew nothing of the guilds except what I found in the help scrolls, but the Paladins seemed like the best choice at the time - after all, that is what form I had been in previous lives in previous realms.

When I set out to learn more about the Paladins, I spoke with some of the existing ones at the time. They told me of the glory and honour the guild had, about the code of honour, the ways of the Church, you know - the typical newbie stuff. It wasn't until much later that I found how little of this would prove to be true.

By the time I started to realize what the guild was actually like, I was already well on my way in Achaea. With many hours and _many_ lessons behind me, and membership in the Order of Light, I felt that the consequences of leaving and following the path I realized was much more suited to me, far outweighed merely being happy and at peace with myself.

Alot of things have happened recently. During the war, I saw the Paladin 'code' crumble further then even I had pushed it before. I saw the Church yet again lack any sort of unity or organization for a single cause. All the things I had disliked were being brought to the surface in a greater sense.

That brought me to think. To reassess my values, so to speak. Was it worth it to continue living the lie? I started to dislike even coming into Achaea.. and when I wasn't on for awhile I was criticized because I incited the Ashtan folk and Shallam couldn't defend it's citizens without me. Stress, anger, hurt, these are emotions I didn't want to be feeling so strongly here.

So now I have followed my heart, and set out to seek my true path. Yes, I am a citizen of Ashtan. No, I haven't declared war on the Church. No, I don't hate you. No, I didn't leave to join the 'winning' side. No, there is no chance that I'll ever return to the Church.

Perhaps I'll spend the rest of my days bearing the disfavour of Aurora, and a title of 'Untrustworthy' bestowed by her. Perhaps I'll lose my old friends, and be forced to forge new ones. Perhaps I'll be the one the Church seeks to destroy. But no amount of hate, no amount of oppression, nothing - will take my happiness.

I hope that all of you may one day find peace with yourselves as well. Follow your heart, and don't ever let anyone push you astray. Nothing nor nobody should stop you from being yourself.

Until we meet again.

Tylin

Penned by my hand on the 15th of Phaestian, in the year 235 AF.