I opened the door and stepped into the void. No mere child was I, yet
still amazing things flew by. At dashing speed I found myself hurtling
through a nexus of nothingness. I had no idea where I was nor where I
was headed. There was no light, yet I could see. There were no roads,
yet I could feel myself walking down a familiar path. I saw symbols of
things familiar and unfamiliar. I saw the faces of friends and enemies.
And then suddenly, I was struck by a black light of darkness and found
myself here. Where here was, I no longer knew. The more I tried to
remember, the more the information I desired slipped away. As I walked
down the street, I saw people both familiar and unfamiliar. My heart
told me that I knew who these people were, yet my brain could not
register them. It was like living inside a stranger's body. The worst
part of it is seeing people my heart associated with closely. My family,
my closest friends, my fellow housemates. I remembered none of them. The
darkness that clouded my mind has torn through me utterly. The
tear-stains on this page give testament to the emotions coursing through
me.

I have been living like this for the past few months, unable to find a
way out. I see the faces of friends and family, but they are as from a
past life. It has been as if my brain has moved on to a different
persona and no longer remembers the persona it once was. Yet my heart
remains in the same place. It is for this unfortunate reason that I
regret to say I am leaving you all, forever. I can no longer bear the
sight of the person my heart calls my ex-wife when I cannot remember
what past we had together. I can no longer bear to look at the people my
heart calls my children if i cannot recognize them as such. To all who
my previous life had touched, I am really, very, truly sorry for what
this may do, but this is the only way I can see of removing the
darkness.

To the Sentaari, who have ever and always been helpful and more: thank
you from the bottom of my heart. I shall truly miss what time we have
shared. I leave you a grateful soul with a full heart who has had the
benefit of knowing you once.

To the city of Shallam: the place my heart calls its homeland shall
always have a place in my heart. My thoughts will ever be on you, my
hopes will share flight with yours. Stay gold.

To my children: wherever you may be, know that I will always be watching
over you. Your father loves you very much.

To my family: wherever you are, I miss you. I have always missed you.
You have always been there for me, ever while you or I were absent I
could feel your presence. I still will when I depart.

To my dear Xellan: you have grown so much. You have truly made your
father proud. Do not let this old man's departure change you in any way.
Continue being the wonderful person you are. Speak your mind and be
independant and you will never go off course. I love you, son, and I
shall truly miss you.

To my dearest and most precious Krystalline: Know that this is not the
end, only the beginning. I do not want you to worry about anything,
least of all my passing. Death is but another road which we all must
take. I want you to continue being the woman I once loved. This passing
is not due to anything you may or may not have done, so do not allow
anyone to make you think that. I want you to continue to give love, for
that is what you do best. Of everyone I am leaving I will truly miss you
the most. You who have touched my soul and garnered the broken pieces of
my heart, they now as always belong to you. I love you Krystalline. From
the depths of my heart.

Penned by my hand on the 20th of Ero, in the year 422 AF.