Dear Verrucht

Your words not only filled me with happiness and hope but what you
showed me later opened my eyes. To many in the Church you are seen as
the outcast to, you have been where i am you have heard what i have
heard, you have seen what i have seen and you have come out a better,
stronger person for it. I am going to draw on that strength from you and
Dusty now more than ever.

Dusty and i have effectively been ignored by those in council, cast out
as effectively as if they had done it themselves. Then they have the
audacity to post on how we caused nothing but strife and trouble in the
Church. I wonder why, perhaps because we were outspoken against the
hypocrisy that they wanted to hide behind.

They won't reply to my posts here because of their unwritten rule but
they will post on their own boards that i cannot see and defame me and
my husband and fill everyone with lies about us. Are they afraid of the
truth? Yes i believe they are. Even their own House Lord lies about me.
His reason for putting me on probation is nothing short of a ridiculous
made up excuse when one of his own secretaries committed treason by
unenemying someone for a reason that was totally un-necessary.

Many many times we have got unwanted people out of Nirvana, how? A
simple skill called perform rite of warding and enemy person. How
difficult is that? But no Carmell committed treason, she unenemied
someone that a former GM said had no honour and that we should never
show honour to. Yet was she punished? No of course not. One cannot
punish a beloved member like Carmell yet because i was busy dying and
helping defend i was punished for failing to reply to a message. Ah the
hypocrisy.

Someone posted that we should not be ignored we should be spoken to,
reached out to, and welcomed back if we chose to. Yet those that posted
that have not done so, it's all empty words empty promises. I thought in
the Church i would find Respect, Humility, all those things you showed
me Verrucht, but i didn't. You have opened my eyes, and yes even people
like Cypra have opened my eyes. I have seen so much now and i know as i
say this that i am sealing my doom and removing any hopes of ever been
welcomed back to the Church, they won't admit that here of course they
will continue to defame me behind my back, and my husband who sadly has
not posted anything yet they include him in their insults and
backstabbing.

Thanks to Dusty and yourself and many others i do not despair. I did
which is why you gave me those words but now i am strengthened. I am not
alone anymore. They have shut Dusty and i out but they still have the
traitor in their midst.

Please note dear Church before you defame Dusty and I again on your
boards, that these are my words alone as they always have been, i speak
my own mind as you well know and dislike.

Meri thank you for your.. nice reply to our being disowned by inviting
others to the Church. How appropriate.

Penned by my hand on the 1st of Valnuary, in the year 408 AF.