You piqued my interest.

The following are my personal thoughts on it so please feel free to skip
ahead if you're not THAT interested.

When I fall in love, mortal love, it's with a man who shares my
interests, protects me, challenges me, cherishes me, and provides for my
lifestyle--whatever demands come from whatever phase of my life I'm in.
Love is in-part a material state of being as much as it is an emotional
one. In fact "Love" has many more facets I'm sure but I'm not a member
of Lady Selene's order so I'll leave the fine details to the experts.
From my fallible mortal point of view, this is how I see "Love."

After 50 or 60 years post the Grand Kicking (purge) of Twilights Order,
The Great Dark Father plucks me up right out from the middle of Mhaldor
one day a few years ago to tell me He still Loves me and wants nothing
but my happiness. I assume he wanted me to believe I'd find that
happiness by returning to his bosom as did many of the dark brethren of
my time in the Order. When I didn't bend that way he kindly and quickly
put me back. Not my kind of Love, but His kind of Love, I assure you.
He'll love you "longtime" as long as you're providing, and sometimes
that ends swiftly. That's not for me.


Love, and Mhaldor. Well, despite the original laws of Lord Sartan as
written in the Apocrypha which dictates there is to be NO Love, and NO
Marriage and NO Childrearing-- There have been many a romantic couple in
Mhaldor running all the way back to the first official marriage, Yig
(founder of the Naga) and Althecea (and even more if you know those
skulking around and whispering in the dark when they think no one is
listening, and sometimes not even then). Lord Sartan, on the other hand,
directly commended me when I broke off an engagement and told me He was
proud of me for choosing Him, and my work for Him, over my mortal carnal
and emotional desires. I felt at the time that I chose one Love over
another. Odd? Not really. I married myself to my faith and my work for
so very long that I could scarcely recall who I was anymore. I gave my
all without falter to my Lord and My Lord provided for me in return,
everything I wanted or needed.

Lord Thoth has reinforced many of my foundational beliefs that were
strengthened by Lord Sartan-- but brought forth an enlightened
understanding and appreciation for Life that I never saw before. The
Teachings of Death, the study of it, the deep introspection absorption
of the purification that death brings, embeds one with such a respect
for life and it's renewal properties that it really lifts the spirit in
ways that I never foresaw when I first began my road down the path of
Death. In Him, I was blinded by the beauty in such a simplistic
complexity. I give Him my ALL, my unwaivering spirit, self and soul, and
I can say without flinching that I Love Lord Thoth because he brought to
me what no one else did. He brought to me what no man, woman, or deity
brought to me before-- My self, my Life.

True love knows no bounds. True faith doesn't recognize citizenship.
Deep spiritual emotional faith in Deities, is nothing less than Love and
is a calling from inner parts of the soul that no one can touch or marr
if it is strong enough and deep enough. If Mortal man could show one
another the love unconditional, Faith unconditional, that we show our
Deities, this world would be a much less conflicted source of Life.
But--- can we?

Penned by my hand on the 1st of Miraman, in the year 378 AF.