Finally Found

I spent years of my life in solitude.
I kept pushing people away.
Keep them away, keep them away,
Dont let them hurt me, not again.

Why then, did it take me so long to realize,
That this is my fault?
Perhaps I was hoping someone would try a little harder.
Perhaps I thought someone could lower my walls.

But,
They never did.
Because every time they tried,
I put the walls back up,
Gave them no chance.

I finally see,
That my walls are too large,
That I must lower them slightly,
So I may smile once more.

Penned by my hand on the 7th of Lupar, in the year 837 AF.