I don't know smiles, just tears
I don't know the things I had before these recent latter years
I know heartache and sorrow
Something that erased all hopes of a happier tomorrow

I did not plan it, I didn't try
Just the fates that dealt a hand I could not pass or hide
I tried to stop it, I tried to smile
But despite all the joys before the present took away those miles

Nothing, I've had it once before
Before when I was all alone and left on the steps of an orphanage door
Nohting, was missing in between
The times when I was raised by others and when my heart couldn't sing

But mixed beneath the surface of all the losses with nothing left
There was a time that something shined and my heart knew not of death
How much more painful the woes were felt when the one thing that I had
Turn on what was truly good and showed me something bad

Nothing wasn't all I had, it wasn't even real
The time I loved and laughed and sang is all that made me feel
Now with those times well beyond the reach to grasp them once again
I am left with the nothing I first claimed and no one to hold my hand

That is the nothing of which I speak and seem too weak to shake
And despite what I might have held before, I've no future to make

Varakye

Penned by my hand on the 22nd of Miraman, in the year 482 AF.