Red as I am in writing now, strong as I feel being here, this is not my
first time speaking for everyone to hear. I should tell you this is my
second, my first begging for a love so dear, amazing now it is answered,
in a way that shouldn't be near.

Amazing how it happened, so much that a blessing could be, when I had
become so cold and numb to a way to be alone for me. How could I not
feel it then with such hope building inside, so slowly and dormant this
love took its time.

Even now I look at myself and wonder, how did I become so lucky and
still I ponder, why am I blessed with being so happy when I was already
blessed so much. And now I can say I am truly complete, I've become
whole, and my life is renewed such.

So simple to say, so hard to understand. Hear me tender world, do not
rush this kind of thing, do not try to fly when you cannot land. Do not
get lost in storybook love and try to live through it in vain. There
will be nothing after the happily ever after, and it is lost in the
search to fall in love again. I failed and fell, pained and broke, and
learned the only way how. It is I who gives the advice I know young love
cannot hear, but I can say my search is done, and I've waited so long,
so very long, and it was worth all the pain now.


I love you Nature, our dear Mother Gaia I shall never forget, and my
cherished Guardian Green Lady I will never let down. Within You I find
my life and my confidence.
I love you my GuildFamily, those of who I trust and console, for it is
from within you I find my strength and pride, and the minds to open my
eyes.
I love you my family, which spreads and spreads, it's life and time
boundless in the special bonds we share with one another. From you I
find a smaller circle to open my world.

For all these three loves have never failed me, they have never let me
down, and I can only share the same love in return. So today I share the
one that makes me warm again, and makes me cry in joy.

I am free, I have grown, my eyes see the innocence I felt as a Green
Thumb again with the experience of the Archdruid.
I am free, I have remembered, my mind has grown to hold memories of
being held and covered by mentors and loving parents to the memories of
my own beloved nephews, nieces, apprentices, and proteges growing before
me.
I am free, I have felt, my heart has been broken and held in a bag until
it could be mended again with tender care. He has found me, my second
soul, my better half, my flowing blood that filled my dry heart, and
renewed my life into our life.


As you wish, my Beau.

Jancis Lighthawk

Penned by my hand on the 18th of Chronos, in the year 327 AF.