i am a little girl
sitting in a long empty hall
where silence has taken over
and watching everything that moves
because everyone's so public
in a silent empty place like this.
the boy and his girl
stop off at a room
kiss her goodbye and walk away
so happy and so casual
do i have to be too young
for such a beautiful love?
a nervous looking teacher
obviously would be somewhere else
but obligation and threats
have called him here
and a dead look in my eyes
with a flicker of a grin
see him quickly off away from my place
but once again i am intruded on
by the smiling lonely boy who
dares play a prettily sounding instrument
ruining my silence to make way
for a sound
writing of sadism and death
but wearing a skirt and pigtails
i am innocent and cute
how foolish they are
but in my state of secrets
manipulation and lies
a need for something true
is my lacking to survive
and though they make me sick
these small unknowing people
have something that my needing
will call upon me suicide

-Ydachikachishiroul Skar'Akai-

Penned by my hand on the 8th of Glacian, in the year 318 AF.